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Zach is eighteen. He is bright and articulate. He's also an alcoholic and in rehab instead of high school, but he doesn't remember how he got there. He's not sure he wants to remember. Something bad must have happened. Something really, really bad. Remembering sucks and being alive—well, what's up with that? I have it in my head that when we're born, God writes things dowZach is eighteen. He is bright and articulate. He's also an alcoholic and in rehab instead of high school, but he doesn't remember how he got there. He's not sure he wants to remember. Something bad must have happened. Something really, really bad. Remembering sucks and being alive—well, what's up with that? I have it in my head that when we're born, God writes things down on our hearts. See, on some people's hearts he writes Happy and on some people's hearts he writes Sad and on some people's hearts he writes Crazy on some people's hearts he writes Genius and on some people's hearts he writes Angry and on some people's hearts he writes Winner and on some people's hearts he writes Loser. It's all like a game to him. Him. God. And it's all pretty much random. He takes out his pen and starts writing on our blank hearts. When it came to my turn, he wrote. I don't like God very much. Apparently he doesn't like me very much either. Sad...

Title : last night i sang to the monster
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last night i sang to the monster Reviews

  • Nancy
    2019-05-10 13:36

    Posted at Shelf InflictedZach is a high school senior. He is also an alcoholic. His mom is depressed, his dad is an alcoholic, and his brother is abusive. Zach has so much pain in his young life that he blocks out the events that led to his stay in rehab. With the help of a kind and sympathetic therapist, and his roommates, Rafael, a 53-year-old alcoholic further along in his recovery, and Sharkey, a 27-year-old drug addict, Zach begins to confront his past and discovers that life is worth living.I connected deeply with Zach and his rehab companions. There were a lot of tears, anger and fear while Zach made strides in his recovery. He develops a strong bond with Rafael and learns that he can trust and love again. It was so easy to get wrapped up in Zach’s life and the lives of his rehab companions as they reveal their painful and heartbreaking stories. “I’ve lived eighteen years in a season called sadness where the weather never changed. I guess I believed it was the only season I deserved. I don’t know how but something started to happen. Something around me. Something inside me. Something beautiful. Something really, really, beautiful.”This beautifully written, powerful story is one of the best I’ve read this year. It made me cry buckets, but I’m happy Zach has a chance for recovery, hope, and a new beginning.

  • Kai
    2019-05-19 11:38

    “The heart can get really cold if all you've known is winter.” This is my favourite book of 2017. I know, it's only been a month and maybe I should add a "so far" but I doubt that there will be a book anytime soon, that will wreck me in such a beautiful way.You probably heard of Benjamin Alire Saénz. You might have read Aristotle and Dante Discover the Secrets of the Universe. You loved it. I did, too. But this was even better.Last Night I Sang to the Monster is deeply moving. It tells Zach's story, Zach who attends therapy every day, who doesn't remember how he even got here, who doesn't know what happened before or why he is where he is. He knows he doesn't want to talk, he's hurting and someone has written sad on his heart when he was born.I picked this book up last night, I put a song on repeat, I read and I read and I finished it at half past one, with wet eyes and and an aching heart and a smile on my face.I love this book.In a nutshell: It's one highly emotional and underrated novel and you should read it immediately because you're missing out on something amazing.Find more of my books on Instagram

  • Cait (Paper Fury)
    2019-05-09 13:44

    Omggg this was so dark and heartbreaking and BEAUTIFUL. I freaking adored it. It's so brutal though and about just how deep the trauma of mental illness, addiction, and pain of being unloved can run. Like excuse me while I turn into that puddle over there.Obviously I don't want to spoil the ending, but IT IS THE BEST ENDING OF MY HEART. I fully nearly gave it 5-stars just for that last chapter alone. I'm c r y i n g. Bless this ending and its perfect measure of darkness and hope.I really loved Zach and so so felt for him. So he's in like a rehab facility for alcohol addiction, but he doesn't remember why. I felt the blurb kind of was like "oH HE HAS AMNESIA" but it's more like suppressed memories. He's very vocal about the fact he doesn't want to remember. And like holy heck as he starts being forced to face his past, you know why this kid doesn't want to remember. Seriously this book is heartbreaking. My heart kind of broke several times for Zach...he is so lost and so confused and full of hate and loneliness gahhh.It's also just so downright emotional. SO EMOTIONAL. Like we have a rehab centre where we get to meet a fair few people as well, and all their stories are going to break a rib or two over your heart. But like they cry. At one point, Rafael writes Zach a note and it says something about girls cry but then he crosses it out and says boys cry. BECAUSE IT'S OKAY FOR BOYS TO SHOW EMOTION, AND TEARS, AND HEARTBREAK. I love love love that this was in there.Also Adam, the therapist, was SO FREAKING AMAZING. I love him.(And like, this isn't a critique or anything, but I'm not sure if Zach was closeted [to himself] gay or not? I was unclear about that.)Smol List Of Dislikes:• it was a lot of tell tell tell...instead of showing• i think Zach's backstory reveal could've been revealed a little more punchingly?• Zach's thoughts are very repetitious and if I had a dollar for every time he said "that really wigged me out" i would've been freaking rich. grrALL IN ALL? Seriously one of the most heart-hitting books I've read in a long time. It was beautiful and dealt with mental illness straight and head on. It's not a "nice" book and it's going to lay out the darkness of abuse, addiction, and depression...like really really deep depression. It's messy and the characters make bad decisions. But tHAT ENDING. My heart is so full after that ending!!! I love it!!!

  • Isa Cantos (Crónicas de una Merodeadora)
    2019-04-26 14:34

    "El corazón puede endurecerse mucho si lo único que conoce es el frío de la noche".Leer lo que Benjamin Alire Sáenz escribe está muy alto en la lista de mis cosas favoritas. No sé cómo lo hace, pero cada una de sus palabras me llega muy hondo. A decir verdad, no sabía que existía este libro hasta que estuvo en mis manos... ¡y menos mal no lo dejé en mi biblioteca mucho tiempo! La historia con la que me encontré en Canción Nocturna fue absolutamente preciosa y desgarradora. Zach, un chico joven, ha llegado a un lugar al que personas con adicciones y enfermedades mentales van voluntariamente para recuperarse. El problema es que Zach no recuerda cómo llegó allí. No quiere recordarlo porque sabe que un gran trauma se oculta detrás de esos pensamientos que ha enterrado en el fondo de su cabeza. Pero hay cosas que Zach sí que sabe y es que tiene un problema con el alcohol, los cigarrillos, la depresión y los sentimientos. Con cada página que pasa, Benjamin Alire nos va presentando lentamente a Zach, pequeños recuerdos de su pasado y las cosas que lo atormentan en el presente. Si bien todo el libro está atravesado por un estilo medianamente poético y lírico, no hay ningún momento en el que algo se sienta recargado. Y, de hecho, creo que este recurso nos acerca muchísimo más a quién es Zach y a todo de lo que está huyendo. Canción Nocturna no es un libro ligero y lleno de felicidad; es un libro que retrata los rincones más oscuros de la mente de una persona, los agujeros negros que son las adicciones, la depresión que va comiéndose lentamente a una persona y los miedos a enfrentar aquello que nos ha hecho daño en el pasado. Si no hubiera leído Canción Nocturna exclusivamente fuera de mi casa, créanme que habría llorado un montón. Este es de esos libros que se sienten reales y hacen que pienses en muchísimas cosas de tu propia vida, cosas por las que has pasado, pensamientos que has tenido, sentimientos que quieres olvidar... todo está allí. Mientras leía, lo único que quería era sacar a Zach del libro y darle un abrazo. Era imposible no querer proteger a este chico del secreto oscuro que se lo estaba comiendo vivo y del miedo constante con el que vivía. Además, sentí que Zach me representaba en muchísimos aspectos que son difíciles de admitir, pero que siempre están acechándote no importa cuántas barreras y muros construyas. Con Canción Nocturna, Benjamin Alire crea una historia llena de soledad, demonios y luchas personales, pero también crea una historia de amistad, redescubrimiento, perdón y amor. Zach, Adam y Rafael están allí para recordarnos que la vida puede ser una mierda, pero que siempre hay una manera de dar un paso hacia adelante y superar poco a poco las situaciones; están allí para recordarnos que la soledad no va a acabar con nosotros; para decirnos que es mejor sentir dolor por haberse arriesgado a amar que no sentir absolutamente nada; y están allí porque están mal pero dispuestos a dejar atrás el miedo y los demonios que no les permiten recordar y sentir nuevamente. "—¿Estás bien, Zach?No. No lo estoy. No sé qué significa estar bien. Nunca lo he sabido y quizá nunca lo sabré.«Bien» es solo una palabra que uso para no tener que hablar de lo que traigo dentro".

  • Amanda Rose
    2019-04-27 14:28

    I wont give a summary of this book, because that's clearly been done about a hundred times below. What I will do, is tell you what I thought of it.Anyone who has given this book a high rating clearly has no understanding of addiction or teenagers. The language in this book is tedious and obviously contrived. He uses the same expressions over and over in an effort to sound young, or cool, or edgy, but it mostly just comes off as obnoxious. If I had to guess, the author writes "That really tears me up" about 100 times in this book.The plot drags and drags. We don't even find out what the character went through that was so awful until about the last 20 pages of an over 200 page book. To top it off, all the characters that the main character interacts with come off as mildly child-molestery. I think the author is trying to create sympathetic adult characters that care, but the way that he wrote them, I just kept waiting for one of them to stick their hand down his pants. It was unsettling. I don't recommend this book.

  • Alexis Ayala
    2019-05-15 19:30

    Benjamin Alire Sáenz es, sin duda alguna, uno de mis autores favoritos, y aunque es difícil saberlo, porque a lo largo de la vida elegir libros y autores favoritos puede ser difícil y complejo, lo sé. Mejor dicho, lo siento. Cada que leo sus palabras e historias vuelvo a un lugar dentro de mi que me hace sentir demasiado. Este libro nos habla de la historia de Zach, un chico con problemas familiares y adicciones, que no sabe como llego a un centro de AA (Alcohólicos anónimos) , que fue lo llevo ahí y por qué parece que cada día su vida deja de avanzar y un monstruo lo arrastra para devorarlo. Con personajes con problemas y traumas bastante serios, el autor no hace viajar por los miedos de muchos de ellos, y aunque en algunas situaciones es bastante repetitivo, puedo asegurar que no se vuelve tedioso ni pesado de leer. Los personajes se sienten reales y sientes todo el dolor por el que están pasando por la forma en la que Benjamin narra los sucesos. Crear personajes como estos puede parecer fácil, pero es una batalla constantes con los fantasmas del pasado de aquellos que los crean.Creados de guerras, de batallas perdidas, de complejidades personales, los personajes en este libro son de lo que más rescato.La historia no es orignial ni diferente a otras que podamos conocer, pero sé que mucho de lo que tenemos en este libro es rescatado por la pluma del autor y las hermosas imágenes que crea. Soy de las personas que les gusta las cosas tristes. Este es un libro muy muy muy triste que con sólo leer el inicio sabrás que tu corazón se romperá en pedazos durante el transcurso de superación, o no, de los personajes. Bejamin lo ha vuelto a hacer, y probablemente lo seguirá haciendo. Siempre toca esas fibras que nadie hace. Me provoca escribir en el libro como si fuera una libreta de anotaciones personales. También los llantos de lectores sensibles no quedaran atrás en este libro. Pensé demasiado en ponerle cuatro estrellas por algunos detalles que no me gustaron. Como información innecesaria o personajes irrelevantes, pero le dejo las 5 porque es Benjamin, por la ambientación de tristeza que presenta, porque se mantiene fiel a su estilo, por Rafael y porque me hizo saber que está escrito en mi corazón.

  • Thomas
    2019-05-12 13:36

    This was a very dark, depressing, disturbing book. Yet, it was also beautiful and bittersweet.Zach finds himself in a rehabilitation facility with no memory of his past. He struggles with the monster living in his dreams and inhabiting his thoughts. There are people that help him though - like his therapist Adam, who is always the optimist, and his roommate Rafael, a 53-year-old man with the eyes of a young boy. Through his time at the treatment center he tries to conquer his isolation and vanquish his fear of the monster.Interestingly enough, the author of this book is also a poet. Saenz's writing was very unique - it flowed like effortless poetry rendered into prose, and each page carried great thought and meaning. Zach's story was so, so sad, but there's enough hope in the book to keep readers flipping the pages.Sometimes there was a bit too much metaphor and thought though - a few of Zack's mental wanderings could have been trimmed. There were a few dull moments here and there, but nothing too boring.A very melancholy novel with an ultimately uplifting message about alcoholism and self-esteem.

  • Debbie
    2019-04-19 16:29

    I found this to be a little too simplistic for me. A lot of the dialogue felt repetitive, and it wasn't until near the ending that I learned what had happened to the main character. While this may not be a bad thing, it felt like much of the story was "filler" until I got there. Might be a better read for a younger person.

  • Arch Bala
    2019-04-26 18:40

    Eighteen-year-old Zach does not remember why he’s in a rehabilitation center for alcoholics, but with therapy and group sessions, he soon finds out that he’s capable of dealing with his past and be able to work on his recovery.I decided to pick this up when I found out that the author was working on the sequel of his multi-awarded novel Aristotle and Dante Discover the Secrets of the Universe. I just wanted to get a feel again, of how this author lured me the way he did with Ari and Dante’s story and this one totally gave me those feelings again! [and this came out three years before Ari and Dante] What an incredible novel! The quality of his writing is impeccable. His characterization rich and the realism behind each character masked through his beautiful prose is fucking genius! Seriously, I cannot even begin to tell you how much I laughed with Zach, cried with him and all those crazy mixed-up emotions that it felt like I was living his life.I believe this story. I devoured everything in it although Zach may have used a few expressions excessively – I believed that these were actually part of his personality where he could not fully articulate himself, depending mostly on his ‘private conversations’ with people.While reading it, I was Zach in the story – not that I’m an alcoholic, an addict or something but there’s something about his character that totally resonates with me. The ‘lost me,’ the ‘little boy’ me that may have been looking for some happiness. I dunno, it’s almost depressing to think about those times while I’m writing this review but yeah, I guess the book is kind of depressing but not in a “I will wallow in this shit and will cry myself to sleep” kind of way. I guess, what I’m trying to say is that you have a choice to read this book and get all weepy about it or read this, wallow in it but expect that at the end of it – there’s some sort of happy ending waiting for you. I liked that in this book. It’s dark in a way that it showed the reality of people suffering from addiction. There was no sugarcoating the fact that it’s not just about destroying themselves but it’s also about destroying everything around them, but most importantly – something I’ve gathered from experience that it’s actually a cry for help.Last Night I Sang to the Monster is an evocative prose of a novel that will leave you enthralled with Benjamin Alire Sáenz artistry! What a truly delightful masterpiece!

  • Aliix
    2019-04-25 14:27

    NoséquedeciralrespectoTengo que meditarloSupo meterse en mis sentimientos & emociones, & en partes me sentía tan identificada con Zach, día a día peleo con mis propios monstruos, no los dejo que controlen mi vida, es una batalla agotadora,leerlo, de esa forma tan sutil, a veces dolía, me hacía recordar el dolor que da la depresión, el vértigo de la ansiedad..el estrés de no querer recordar, de no valorarte..& ese final T.T es tan hermosoel contraste de vivir aceptando el dolor y dejarlo pasar, en vez de aferrarte a el.Al final todos merecemos felicidad completos, rotos, dañados, descompuestos,fragmentado, merecemos amor y paz mental

  • juan carlos
    2019-04-26 11:54

    De nueva cuenta Benjamín Alire Sáenz lo volvió hacer, que forma de escribir, que manera tan creíble de adentrarte a una historia, buenísimo libro. ¿Para qué leer Canción Nocturna?1. Y creo que es lo que más rescato, el autor supo crear a un personaje que siente, que sufre, que habla con el corazón, que nos trasmite dolor y agonía. En verdad las palabras que usa, los diálogos provocan en el lector una empatía sublime con el protagonista. 2. La manera que maneja el tema de los monstruos interiores que tenemos los humanos, hacen que el lector caiga en estados reflexivos bastante profundos, haciendo ver como estas llevando tu vida hoy en día y sobre todo como te percibes ante tí y los demás. 3. Los tópicos que maneja son bastante fuertes, vamos desde adicciones, a familia disfuncionales, de secretos a dolores y de abusos a felicidades. Amantes de la psicología y la psicoterapia este es su libro, aprenderán muchísimo. 4. Sabe usa el dolor, la depresión, la tristeza y el alma fracturada de los seres humanos para darle cuerpo a sus personajes, a sus escenas y a su trama. Lo hizo de forma espectacular Benjamín Alire Sáenz .(Y para estos temas sólo Banana Yoshimoto lo sabía hacer, pero canción nocturna igualo ese recurso narrativo de la oscuridad y tristeza del alma para crear una novela original).5. Los personajes son un mecanismo perfecto que llevan al lector a entender, a disfrutar, a sentir una historia. Sobre todo los personas de Zach, Adam y Rafa los amé. 6. Hubo un momento de identificación con este libro y lo debo de decir, al leer " YO TE VEO" y ver todo lo que implica esta frase hizo que todas las fibras sensibles de mi cuerpo reaccionaran y ese final me puso demasiado sensible. Sólo un verdadero autor sabe lograr esto. Libro recomendadisimo, que se va a mis mejores lecturas de este año

  • Littlebookterror
    2019-04-20 19:31

    This book packs an emotional punch that tears right into your heart.It's an incredibly vivid story that starts off slow and before you know it, has you in its hooks. You start to root for the characters, living along their ups and downs.It breaks you, and it mends you.The writing is rough around the edges which only adds to the appeal and atmosphere the further to get into it.

  • Scott
    2019-04-25 11:51

    I have to say that this has quietly become one of my favorite books. The story is about addiction and the walls in one's life that block recovery. It's about trying to forgive in order to live life. I'll admit it was a slow read for awhile, but I think it was a subconscious thing. The danger is that it's too easy to see yourself in the characters that are portrayed and that can be difficult, especially if you've dealt with any kind of recovery in your life. And who hasn't these days? More than anything, this book is a love story, but not in the traditional sense. It's about loving oneself and loving others. It's also a story of hope. I've never had a book in which made me cry repeatedly for the last quarter of the book. The author did an incredible job of letting the reader into the minds of the characters. More surprisingly, the book was incredibly poetic, again, not in the traditional sense. I vested so much of myself into hoping Zach would overcome his demons and learn to forgive and live life. This will be a book that will resonate with you for some time. This is not a book for middle schoolers. The language is extreme as is some of the content.

  • KimberlyRose
    2019-05-11 18:34

    First there was this: Then, after an intense journey of heart-stretching, mind-opening scenes of pain and love via real, honest and perfectly paced storytelling, there was this:The ending was a miracle, like a breath of oxygen-rich air after rain.Edit: ...still thinking about this book, a week later...The day I returned this book, I gushed to the librarian how spectacular this book was. She inquired, "What's it about?" I stumbled through some ineffectual, inane, bumbling description. Only later, after much thought, I realized what my true answer should have been: love.

  • tanja
    2019-05-19 11:25

    Sáenz did it again. God wrote brilliant on his heart, and this book wrote grateful on mine. I am grateful for this story and for what it taught me.This book is heartbreakingly underrated, so if you’re doubting whether or not you should give it a go, do it. You won’t regret it.

  • Alex - coffeeloving_bookoholic
    2019-05-18 18:37

    😱😭❤️

  • Jessi ♡
    2019-05-19 17:53

    hi guys there’s a way out always and i’m happy and i’m crying

  • Kisses A
    2019-05-09 12:28

    I definitely did not plan on reading this. But from the moment i began it was so well written that it just sort of pulled me in. All i am going to say is that its really different from regular YA in a good way. And i was so pleased with the ending... Anyway basically it really helps me to see what others are going through and how little things can have huge effects and the reasons people may turn to drugs and the like. How important family life and growing up is to the children and where it can lead if not done well. But this book also shows that things can get better with time even when it seems not.

  • Wendy
    2019-05-12 12:35

    update: I'm a rare 5 star person. It has to be an overall good book with a decent plot, sympathetic characters, unobtrusive language and a satisfying ending. And above all else, it should be believable. This book had it all for me.As for a satisfying ending, some people like non-endings, like how "The Giver" ended. Some people, like G.R.R. Martin wants everyone dead and long forgotten as time marches on. I, more or less, like happy endings. And believable, even if its paranormal/mythical, there is that suspension of disbelief that you either have it or you don't. I'm not big about picking quotes from a book to sum up my thoughts, but this author, just wow. It's between Zach and Adam, the counselor."But look, Zach, another part of you lived. You lived, Zach.""You're crying," I said. "That happens sometimes," he said.We both sat there for a long time, not saying anything. "When Rafael was talking about his son, you cried then too.""Yeah, I cried.""Do we hurt you?""No. You move me, Zach."That's a beautiful thing. That's what I wanted to say, but I didn't say that. I didn't say anything. Like I said, I almost didn't get past pg. 15. Tiny print, and just a bunch of sadness. Push through it, and see a boy broken into a million pieces scooped up and slowly reformed. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~Almost done with this one, and it almost made me late to work today. Sometimes, a sad book makes you just sad for the world, or sad for yourself. Not this one, and not for me at least. Don't get me wrong: this is a really heartbreaking book. The sadness is just imbued into each and every conversation with the characters and all the internal dialogue.While the thing going on with Zach is that he can't remember what happened before he got there, you just know it's so terrible that his body won't let him remember. Very powerfully written and lyrically beautiful, and this is coming from a book reviewer who doesn't like flowery language and forced prose...but this is just..wow. more to come when I finish today....

  • prag ✨
    2019-05-08 19:51

    DNF @14% (for now)It's too dark for my mental space right now, maybe some day later.

  • Simcsa
    2019-05-12 18:29

    Sorry Judies, I couldn't get myself out of bed to eat, let alone update. These would have been my updates.__________________________________"Look," I said, "all I know is that only thing I'm in charge of is Zach."Adam smiled. "And how are you doing with that?""I'm doing a pretty shitty job if you ask me."I wanted to ask her if she was better. I mean, if she was getting well. I wondered if something changed inside of you. I mean, there was this talk about change all the time and I wondered how anyone would know if they changed. Did it feel different? What would that feel like? It's not as if I could grow wings. It's not as if I could ever fly. It's not as if I could ever be anything beautiful.And I kept thinking to myself: Some people have dogs. What do I have? I have dreams I don't want to remember. I have two roommates named Rafael and Sharkey. And I have a monster and a therapist named Adam. What happened to me that I couldn't just have a dog like normal people? And I couldn't stop crying."Carpets get stains and people get scars," he says.I shoot him back the same snarky smile. "I'd rather be the carpet," I say.This is my theory: the people who shouldn't hate themselves, do hate themselves. And the people who should hate themselves, don't hate themselves. The world is all backwards. See, this is one of the many reasons why God and I are not good friends."Rafael?""Yeah?""Do we all have monsters?""Yes.""Why does god give us monsters?""You want to know my theory?""Sure.""I think it's other people who give us monsters. Maybe God doesn't have anything to do with it."There is something inside me that is killing me.There is something inside me that wants to let whatever is killing me do its job.I looked at the stars and envied them. God didn't make them feel things.He turned around and smiled. People were so beautiful when they smiled.__________________________________Beautiful. Just so beautiful. :)

  • Iván López
    2019-05-18 11:51

    Canción Nocturna. Increíble, a pesar de que esté libro al principio me aburría y no le encontraba mucho sentido a la historia llego un punto a la mitad del libro en el que se convirtió en algo que no podía parar de leer.Toco temas que a pesar de no estar tan relacionados conmigo, me hizo sentir muchas cosas y despertó muchos sentimientos dentro de mí, incluso me hizo acordarme de mi libro favorito "The perks of being a wallflower" porque el personaje principal Zach lo sentía muy relacionado o con pensamientos muy parecidos a Charlie, pero sin llegar a copiarse del personaje como tal.Este libro definitivamente se lleva 5 estrellas de mi parte porque ha sido un libro que está tocando el tema del alcoholismo en un lugar especial para gente con problemas con el alcohol, lo cuál creo que fue una idea muy innovadora e impresionante, el ver como fue plasmada está historia y como te transporta a esta realmente sensación de estar dentro de ese lugar.En muchos momentos me llegue a identificar con no solo el personaje principal si no también con los secundarios.El libro está escrito de una manera tan impresionantemente descrita en cuestión de sentimientos que no llega a ser tediosa en ningún momento. Espero mucha gente lea este libro.Creo que no queda nada más que decir... ¡Muchas gracias Benjamin por está historia tan conmovedora!

  • Erika
    2019-04-24 17:29

    3 stelle e mezzo.

  • Agnė
    2019-05-12 19:46

    3.5 out of 5While listening to the audiobook version of Last Night I Sang to the Monster, a realistic YA novel, at first I couldn't decide whether the book is exceptionally beautifully written or exceptionally beautifully narrated. I think it's the combination of both. Thanks to Benjamin Alire Sáenz's writing and MacLeod Andrews' narration, the main character's, Zach's, voice feels conversational and authentic, and I could understand, relate to, and even feel his pain, anger, sadness, denial, and (view spoiler)[ultimately love and happiness (hide spoiler)].Furthermore, Benjamin Alire Sáenz's prose is poetic and evocative, and the story is emotionally complex and deeply moving. Although Last Night I Sang to the Monster deals with many depressing issues, it somehow manages to remain hopeful, uplifting, and so BEAUTIFUL, I just can't ((view spoiler)[and I'm not even talking about the ending here, which is sentimental, yes, but also deeply satisfying (hide spoiler)]). All the characters are complex, realistic, often messed up in myriad ways, and I loved them all (well, maybe except for Zach's brother, Santiago). Remarkable.The middle of the novel, however, seems a little bit drawn-out, but it might be kind of fitting as the process of recovery and healing takes time, requires a lot of patience and hard work, and rarely is straightforward.

  • Anna
    2019-05-19 12:44

    this was so damn sad but amazing at the same time. i loved the characters and the writing was fantastic, even though it almost made me cry and i hate emotions.

  • Cari
    2019-04-22 17:30

    Have you ever read anything that put a sick, shook up feeling in your stomach? Like the words you just read put a dark cloud over your head and made you feel not just sad, but slightly ill? That's how I felt for so much of Last Night I Sang to the Monster...This book is heavy, but luckily it is written in this really beautiful, poetic way that allowed me to still enjoy it as a literary work. Also, thank goodness, there is some sun shine peeking through those dark clouds by the end. So much of it was painful to experience through the eyes of the characters, but that made their triumphs all that much more meaningful. The blurb does a great job of summarizing the book without giving too much away, so I won't venture into the plot in this review. I will, however, drop a few quotes here at the end to show what I mean about how beautifully it was written: "I keep seeing a newspaper being tossed around in the wind. And then a strong gust comes along and the newspaper is thrown against a barbed wire fence and it gets ripped to shreds in an instant. That's how I feel. I think god is the wind. It's all like a game to him. Him. God. And it's all pretty much random. He takes out his pen and starts writing on our blank hearts. When it came to my turn, he wrote sad.""God, it was incredible to feel so perfect. Look, God didn't write the word perfect on my heart. But cocaine did what God didn't. Wow. Perfect.I was on fire. I mean it. On fire! The truth is that I wanted to die. It would have been beautiful to die feeling so alive. I knew I'd never be that perfect again."Note to self: If I'm going to spend my birthday reading again next year, pick a less depressing book! ;)

  • Filipa
    2019-05-01 12:37

    How Zach would put it: That really teared me up.As I started this book, I confess I was expecting nothing less than the simply beautiful Benjamin's writing. I was fast disappointed since what I found was much different. "Last Night I Sang to the Monster" is the story of Zachariah, told with Zach's very own words, changing the tone of the narrative completely from the one we could expect.However, as much as the first half of the book was hard to get through, beause I wasn't really connecting with this book's essence, it still got to me and my feelings. By the end, I was sad, broken, happy and somehow full of hope and possibility.I think this book shows you how all of us are capable of change and improvement toward better days and happiness, and how important it's to let people get in, to heal, to help the change, when we're in a bad place.I think that in such a horrible world and scenario, we saw a lot of love and a lot of beautiful things. And that moved me more than I thought it would.Also, that ending was such a tight hug after so much pain and confusion.Again, my heart is full: of love, of beauty, of hope and possibility.

  • fran
    2019-04-25 14:34

    holy shit this book i don't have words

  • Bebo Wouters
    2019-05-04 19:49

    Wow wow y wow! Que manera de hacerme sentir cosas este libro! Lo leí con muy poco entusiasmo pero termine completamente sorprendido y enamorado de esta historia y de sus personajes! Realmente Benjamin es un genio, completamente distinto a “Aristoteles y Dante Descubren Los Decretos Del Universo” pero cada uno tiene ese toque tan maravilloso y poético que enamora!

  • Raya
    2019-04-22 19:27

    I do like and appreciate what Sáenz presents in this novel, and the writing style holds down a nice sense of prose blended with poetic flair and metaphor. At the same time, this story doesn’t grip me—and I mean really, truly grip me—the way other books do. I’m talking about books like There Are No Children Here: The Story of Two Boys Growing Up in the Other America and The Perks of Being a Wallflower. Those are books that captivate my attention and emotions and seizes them very firmly. What I’m saying is this: Sáenz has what I believe to be a good and powerful story (especially for the YA audience—ages 15/16 and up, though depending on maturity level), but it’s not a story I fully connect to. And to be honest, I don’t think I allowed myself to fully connect. I didn’t want to. Zach’s story is not something I was able to read through in one sitting, or even split into chunks over several days. When I first started reading, I took a week-long break before holding it in my hands again and greeted its text. I think Sáenz does an exemplary job at relaying a proper sadness, anger, anxiety, and even confusion in relation to Zach’s history, but this is what makes it difficult to read. I’ve read stories, both fiction and non-fiction alike, that range in subject matter from sexual abuse, addiction, death, murder… they’re mood dampeners, right? Even watching news can be depressive. I swear, my local news has reported three child deaths and several adult deaths this week with enough sad detail to make me say, “Enough!” I don’t want to watch the news anymore, and I had a similar reaction to Last Night I Sang to the Monster.Unlike other stories I have read with similar topics, Sáenz's writing effectively altered my mood sate. In other stories, I’ve read and thought, “Jesus, how horrible,” and then I sympathize. However, this story actually latched on to me and dragged my mood lower, lower, and lower for most of its length. There is a lot of gloomy text to march through, and it wasn’t until Zach took a little more interest in his environment that I became genuinely curious about other characters (e.g., What are their stories? What will happen to them? and so on). Soon after, I found myself turning pages just hoping I could finally piece together what happened to Zach—something he doesn’t remember or want to remember. What bothered me was forcing myself to read through Zach’s refusal to even try to remember. Even though repressing his memory and not wanting to remember are both understandable and realistic, I felt like I was sifting through repetitive “I’m sad/upset/leave me alone/God, I need some bourbon” statements. In a way, this gives a full picture that’s necessary in comprehending Zach’s complexity of character and emotion—to understand why he is the way he is without making undue judgment from an outsider’s perspective. Something happened to Zach, something tragic. I can’t give away what that something is, but when repressed memories and tragic events are involved, it is not likely that an individual will suddenly have a “Great, great! Remembering is fantastic!” moment. It’s a slow, laborious process, and readers journey in baby steps alongside Zach’s progressive course. As a result from this “progressive course,” it is promising to watch Zach learn how to trust and form relationships all the while slowly allowing his barrier to crumble. Stories like Zach’s are not only sad to read about, but to think about, and they often do not end well. Sáenz, with admirable lyrical quality, shows that these stories do not always have to meet lamentable endings. Given, however, the right set of support and assistance—which, I think, is rare to come by compared to a general survey of outcomes. Regardless, it’s a great showcase of how a damaged, broken individual can face the odds and find inner-strength to plow through hourly struggles. Literally. Every day is a struggle—every hour, every minute, can feel like hell. For me, and generally speaking, this story is a great example of facing your “monster” and digging deep to find a will to fight and change. Discovering a new-found sense of will means realizing I do want to live despite the suffering and excruciating hurt that has inflicted life-long damage. While emotional and mental scarring may never completely heal, it’s a matter of perspective and how willing a person is to accept what has occurred and “make the best of it” (so to speak). However, there is a lot more when looking at the specifics to Zach’s story, yet I hesitate to talk about it. (I would hate to spoil anything!) All in all: well-written example of an injured character’s journey toward recovery. Ultimately, this story bestows awareness, understanding, and, I believe, inspiration and hope. If you’re up for handling a dismal climate, I do recommend this book. (Though you may want to consider some lighter material to balance it out—I certainly did.)